Autism is fun. Nobody loves you, no body likes you, they're all gone without you, having fun... I have had a pretty good day. It's funny, because by all means, it hasn't been a great day, but I am starting to be pretty indifferent to these things that govern good days over bad days lately, because I've sort of realized that the things I dwell on stupidly as being so important or significant, are not.

New developments in the Pink household that are really stupid, but have bettered my understanding of the situation of why I was not allowed to come over this weekend. I won't go into it. I unfortunately tried to drop off his toothbrush at work, but, apparently it isn't the in thing to show up at work on time- so that was a bust. I met the people he works with- it was very embarrassing, but they were nice. And Josephine (the girl he was telling me about to make me jealous) is actually an old aqquaintance of mine. We gossipped about the old staff and what happened to them (I used to work there in the building) I left the toothbrush and the fucking valentines gift, and left. I guess it's a good thing that I have no expectations of anything right now.

So perhaps I'm being a tad miserable, but it also just hit me tonight to stop being so fucking unrealistic. I think friends are better then lovers, when it comes right down to it. Although- my friends are just as bad as him when I really think about it. So I won't and I don't.

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